The key for me has been to combine the two, it isn’t that the light must defeat the dark, like in Christian “good and evil” culture, but that the light and dark must work together, the light illuminates the path, and the dark has the experience and strength to weird the sword in defense of humanity, the dark alone cannot see the foe to strike, and may only see shadows that are bigger than what is real, the light alone only knows how to live in the light, and cannot handle the dangers ahead, only together can one see things through, the fight exists within us just as it exists without, growing up in this environment our minds have been colonized and must be decolonized before we can advance our fight past ourselves into one of solidarity with those who have reached the stage to do so, Marxist Leninist Dialectical and Historical Materialism applies to the human mind just as it does everything else in nature for it is how reality itself even works, even space/time is in a dialectical relationship with each other. This has all been most relevant to me on a deep level, the trauma that split my mind made an injury within me that only this path can heal.

I think this is one of the lessons China learned for the fall of the USSR, that you can’t just “make” the revolution happen before they are ready to happen themselves, or you spread yourself thin, and so the Chinese have the saying “an egg cracked from the outside is breakfast, and egg cracked from inside is new life”, the people have to be ready for revolution, the conditions must be ripe for it, and they must be willing and able to defend it themselves even after winning it, and then China does provide help, like with the aid they send to countries being brutalized, including even non Socialist countries when it makes sense, like for example aid they’ve sent to Iran.

I am not aware of how I am treating it like gospel (perhaps because my childhood trauma had to do with religion and set me like a fire against it, I don’t understand “gospel” in the first place), my fears and paranoia are not related to Theory in that way, thanks to the conditions of my mental health and trauma and life difficulties and so on, all before I ever read anything, so that error had more to do with my fear and paranoia mental patterns popping up and taking over without me realizing I was, and so became primary and attempts to make sure I wasn’t messing up in some way by remember Theory I’ve read, secondary, other comments were more helpful.

This thread has made me realize, while my main thinking for trying to actually talk to people online was to fight social anxiety so I could do more in real life too, it seems it also gives opportunity to practice self improvement as a Communist as well, thanks.

Edit: and also to realize that overcoming my childhood trauma isn’t just something to do for my own sake, but actually necessary for the path of being a Communist, as it is that trauma that drives my paranoia so high and makes me so inclined to listen to it, I must finish addressing it to remove the biggest part of me still clinging to liberalism, so maybe that key that I’m looking for simply can’t be found in Theory alone, but needs something like talking in this community to find. I was thinking of Practice as only this thing that happens in the streets, but that may have been far to much of a mechanical and narrow understanding of Practice, I already knew I needed Practice to go with Theory but thinking it had to be in the streets created a “chicken and egg” sort of scenario as I can’t yet bring myself to do that, so I need to find it here first, like training wheels when learning to ride a bike.

I thought I was avoiding that by focusing on just the icon and banner, but I realize now that I may have been ingauging in another form of liberalism by trying to treat the icon and banner in isolation in the first place, as things only make sense within the context of how they interrelate with other things, not taken in isolation.

Thank you for your criticism, I will try to learn from this.

Maybe, sometimes my paranoia can get the best of me, so I must remain careful of that about myself, even so, every time I look at that symbol my “fight or flight” response goes crazy, sometimes ones instincts protects oneself, sometimes it gets in the way.

Edit: I think I figured something out about it, rather than it being the use of fascist symbols it might be the other way around, that fascists are co opting nature symbols as a part of their reactionary thinking, as reactionary thinking is that which is in support of going backwards, of stopping the new thing, that they would cling to old symbolism, but Native Americans are still behind the oppressive wall of colonialism in the US, so what is reactionary for a fascist, may actually be progressive for a Native American.

I haven’t read much about US colonialism and Native Americans yet (the result of my bad coping mechanism that makes me want to run away from horrors close to home, and preference to learn about nicer things far away, like China), or else I might have known sooner.

Notice anything funny about the channels icon and banner? It looks like someone tried to shove as many Fascist/Nazi symbols into one spot as possible, but also obscure their nature as well, sort of crypto fascists style. So even before looking any deeper I already don’t trust anything about it. The lightning bolt (and the wing looks like another), the sort of “black sun” jagged triangles on the left, the iron crosses, the rain clouds (IE stormfront), even the flowers (anarchist rose), and rainbow (CIA uses minority rights as an excuse to invade), and finally the bird (like the use of the eagle), makes me think there is no way it is accidental.

Edit: I don’t actually know anything about the group, I only didn’t want to engage in the liberalism of saying nothing when noticing something suspicious, I’d been re reading Combat Liberalism recently and I’ve been worried it was something I’d be doing

Get her to read “Left wing Communism an Infantile Disorder” by Lenin

Ooof, this thread sure got spicy, sometimes it is important to remind ourselves we all want a better world. Peace and love, friends, allies, and Comrades! 🐱 💖

Please, take a deep breath in and slowly breath it out, non of us are enemies, it isn’t worth getting so heated over some podcasters, Comrade.

Edit: just noticed this post was 7 hours ago, might have been pointless to post this, whatevs.

This also demonstrates why the Capitalists (those who hold Capital) are so out of touch with humanity as a whole, they are the closest to their god, Capital, than anyone else, and thus are it’s greatest personification of it’s nature. It’s very embodiment of alienation, seeing everything within the binary view of “those that exploit” and the “cattle to be exploited”. And yet at the same time they are not really in charge, they are puppets to their god, Capital, this thing that isn’t sentient, isn’t even alive, but that has rules, rules that they too are forced to follow lest they become “lowly cattle” like the rest of us, and the closer they are to Capital, the further from humanity they become and may even see it’s loss as a “fate worse than death”.

And so from their twisted view, a billion people, “cattle”, dead, is a small price to pay if it can even give them just a small chance of staying close to Capital, and protecting it against the rebellion of humanity casting off it’s yoke. Making us Communists, who seek to free humanity, and who has the tools to do so, it’s greatest enemy.

Of course we Communists know that the seeds of a systems destruction exists within that very system, and that the death, one way or another, of that system is inevitable, as nothing is eternal, but for the Capitalists who are closest to Capital, seeing the death of the system the same as if it was their own death, and who have little connection with humanity for which they are so a odds with, see it’s death as the death of everything, as it is all they hold dear, all that matters to them, and so terror drives them to mythology, to see Capitalism as eternal, or at least as something they can make eternal, to keep the reality of it’s loss at bay. It is also why when it is collapsing they get more and more unhinged, they are checking themselves out from reality as they get more desperate, as it becomes harder to deny reality, they must insulate themselves from it further.

Edit: I think that maybe existence itself would be the one exception from nothing being eternal, as actual nothingness can’t exist as it is completely self contradictory at the most basic, conceptual level, meaning you can’t get something from nothing, and that means that anything that does exist must have derived from something else that exists or existed. It’s that basic physics law of “energy cannot be created or destroyed, only changed from one form to another”, that some form or another of “existence” must have always existed, but the forms within it change and aren’t eternal, and with humans being entirely the result of the configuration of atoms in a certain pattern, as a result of a long, slow, stupid process of evolution, and thus also not eternal. However, humans don’t exist alone, but as a whole with the conditions of the universe itself, so we pass on knowledge to our children, and eventually uncover the nature of reality, IE “advance science” and so eventually travel amongst the stars, do what would have been thought impossible before, because a thing is greater then the sum of it’s parts as it’s configuration enables it to do things that those parts could not do alone, humanity across generations do things no single human could before even have dreamed of.

Edit Edit: Or maybe I should say “energy” rather than “existence”, but things are getting a little removed from the concert here, and I don’t have a deep enough understanding of physics to go deeper so maybe I should stop.

Same with everything out of Hollywood and most games on Steam, anything the Capitalist Ruling Class has control over is inevitability used against us, and should be treated as already compromised. Don’t be surprised if it turns out that they are using AI on Social Media (that they control especially) to subtle manipulate everyone, not just with fake accounts, but complex algorithmic control on who sees what and in what context, and even more, like we know they shadow ban, but what if they also shadow edit peoples post, like the poster sees the original, but strangers unlikely to contact the poster directly sees a modified version of the post that subtly redirects it’s meaning. The possibilities are endless and shows why AI can’t just be ignored, why the US is so desperate to build out data centers despite the tensions, and why China is working hard to advance it also, less the future be in the hands of the US. Don’t underestimate AI, it is a very rapidly advancing tech that the Capitalists will and are using against us.